Wednesday, June 30, 2010
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Saturday, June 12, 2010
I Got A Feeling" Woohuu"
I'ma total idiot, a hot girl whom i just know... OMG. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME??
Yeah, I've got a feeling that "WHY THE FUck DID I FALL IN LOVE IN THE CLUB"!!??
If I had you man... I was so totally cheated after this girl just came so close to me...
and then she was dancin, huggin another BENG looking guy...
I was totally out of the league>
ok... enough of trash talk, Imma back my BLOG!! Hope "JU" missed me^^ "muaks"
6 months without blogging and totally forgotten about these pages of memories, past, events and emotions that were written in this cozy blog... It was really nice to read my own blog myself....
as looking back at what u've done and what should have been done... Imma vry forgetful person... It's hard for me to learn... but someday.... I will definately change myself, my personality, character, behaviour, and most definately, sense of dressing,,, i realised many clothes don't suit me, my wardrob is full of over sized cl;othes, as my mum always used to say "YOUR BODY WIll GROW BIGGER DE". and its been so many years and I 'm still as skinney and small as ever... I don'y blame her but it really doesn't work><>
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Cassiopeia of Dongbangshinki at 4:47 PM
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Friday, June 11, 2010
Being Emotional Is a flaw, but not facing it would escaping reality-_-
Having Good Friends are wonderful. It's they may also degrade to a stage where you
would ask yourself "Have you guys really treated me as a true friend?" And when
you think back about the happy moments etc. You would not want to be calculative,
but what if they push you to a level where you feel verbally abused but the Loved one's where you trusted most....?
If saying that i'm a failure in most things, It would be studies and relationship and socializing with most people... If making someone hate me, it would be my character and personality. But making
your best friends hating you and insulting you in-front of others... What would it be?? I escape the
cruel fact that I do irritate people, but at the same time I ask myself... Why do I act like this?? Why it's alway people hating me?? I'm weak, people look down on me a lot, maybe my family looks down on me too... But what am I surpose to do in order to get things right....??!! I lack knowledge, I lack personality... it's a dear friend who told me that... In the worst way possible...
It totally broke me into pieces... shatter in the darkest places in my heart that the ray of hope would never shine... I was devastated... Lost... and Sad... What was the things that triggered that anger?? Think back, maybe I shouldn't get too close to many people... It's really scary... It's like locking out for a land-mine and stepping right on it... I'm really scared of socializing, especially now...
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Cassiopeia of Dongbangshinki at 4:52 PM
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Im back to this blog once again... Will mostly words... Nobody really reads anyway. ^^
I lost alot of precious stuff this year, Some are importan, Some are jus trouble...
It's hard to keep them... They just keep getting out of control...
Guo Ming is back on track... He talks to me alittle more ard... Joseph too...
Muhammad is jus a dumbass which even alah oso hard to help him...
I lost JiaLe... Darry... And the trust of ppl in fernvale, Im lik and infamous outcast...
Now even ah bee is drifting away from me... we're having a distances...
The only friend that nvr left me is only daryl... no matter how we argued, fought...
he came back eventually..
I really think some friends really make se of u and yr money...
thats all. im getting more emo nowadays... but i dun give up hope....^^
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Cassiopeia of Dongbangshinki at 6:49 AM
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Slacking at home... Merry Christmas.... Wrong Spelling?
Merry X'mas To Any Human being out there!! But not on "Pandora" Cus It Don't Exist!! How I wish to be A Na'Vi!! 2.7m Tall!! OMG...
"Skwang" Thats a nice word!! lol
Went with my Long Time No Contact Cousin 'Ariel'
And Her 3 Cute Frens, Made Those Two Guys Laughed Out their Lungs!!With Wad U aSK? Erotic & Artistic Jokes!!
Addicted to Jeff dunham's Jokes!!... or shall I say Racism !! Muhaha!!
"India" Weird Ass Country, Has A dOT On Forehead. Whats that? "(U R Here!!)"
OMG, Walter Is one hell of a Hypocrite of puppet in 'History'
Jeff DunHam is one who really Makes his puppets come to life, Not to mention Achmed The Dead Terrorist@!
Christmas party Ended in Disaster and a lost of a friend...
I shouted at her, She feel disappointed in me!!
She once told me, Sister will always be by yr side... I guess that was jus for a moment!! But it all come down to my own doings...
An Apology can be a vaccine or a medicine, But it dose not Garantee a full recovery!! Things can happen again!! Accidents may occur... Debates nvr Stop!!
This is a reality that I'm stuck and unable to Escape!!
It hurts whenever it flashes!! I guess she would be a friend that I would have to go a Thousand Miles to Search for, One with An Attitude Like None Other, Adorable yet Pure, Kind yet Unreasonable At time('x') maybe This is A lesson for me, A lost Of a Precious Friend, A gain of a New Learning, Abitabah, Mayb Buddha Enlighten me!! And Believe Is An open Thing, Amen!! I wish for Father's Blessings too, I pray Sincerely In my Heart... I respect all got, I have many Believes... Be it Jesus, goddess of mercy, Etc. But Its best to have one which really leads the heart and soul to Enlightenment!!
I asked my friends, Should I exist? Or I was off not in this world? I feel death in my vision, I want my soul released and free, but the reality is that I'm not brave enough to do it, cus Of the pain, during that one moment, the pain which set the soul free, The action that make a person goes inbetween the two worlds!! simply Put,' Suicide'
Its an incredible and unimaginable sensation, An carefree soul Ever-after
But Just Moments, Split Second Before We could even Start...
Our Heart best Rapidly, Feeling Pain in our heart, a kind of evil and poisonous Emotion, Trying to Keeps our souls get out of this filthy and polluted world!! It's "LOVE" Love for our Parent who Aren't Dead Yet, Love for A Hot women or Handsome Men Waiting for you!! Love for the PLants aND THE Gods that Created this world, Love For This fLITHY, sMELLY Little World, Our bodies Can't Live without Out Soul, The worlD cAN'T Live Without Us, This is Human, A patetic Kind of creature Which Can't Live without Support, Can't Live Without Atmosphere, Can't Live without A Hesitation!! This is Humane... Y r we born Like that? Ask God... !!
Emotions is the engine in Some of us, it is a boost that either drives u, or totally switches off yr spirit, Being emotional is good for Creativity, but not good for hard labour... It's not an on going process, it needs rest and and comfort most of the time, Basically, Im speaking on the side of an emotional person. So I do not know how does ppl who aren't emotional works... But above is how I think an emotional Person get his/her work done, Those emotional are controlable, but needs effort and intelligences t0 guide its way, Humans have a vry complicated brain, we think about how we look, how we appeal to other humans. Mostly the opposite sex!! Human emotion is very sensitive at times, Its a time bombs nobody can predict its presence, not even the human instinct!! Except for Daily Interaction, E.g A husband and wife, They learn to accept the exsistence of the time bomb inside each other, And co-inhabit to live on with it... A brother and sister, KNowing when the siblings will cause a fight is oso because of daily interacting, they know when and wad might happen!! It's like predicting, but it's more of a daily cycle, But still, the human instinct is only made to war, u Predict yr enermy's position, but u dun predict wad speech they're havin!! Everything in this world has a limit!!! Sometimes its only best to keep mum, Can joke around if u can!! Prediction is hard to hit 100% success rate, but being fresh and creative is what most ppl need!! , mAN i NAG ALOT!! THAT THE END, U may find my storey Have no Meanining, Cus i Drank coffee!! HEHE, so long, pls go and support AVATAR, It's a wonderland!! GOODNIGHT
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Cassiopeia of Dongbangshinki at 7:46 PM
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
yeah, going to have my own HOME...Finally I'm Gonna hav my own home, but not my own room though...
but at least I got freedom... Gonna palace all my Gundam Babies
on the shelf!
Tomorrow I wonder wad Thong willll say... Sure Wad-Cad again!!LOL
I know miss teng vry disappointed in me, bo bian...
She the best teacher who try to motivate me...
but i hopeless and useless... Thx youmiss teng... I jus hope u can read this...
cus I kno I make u vry disappointed in me, bcus of my selfishness...
U r the best and caring teacher who cares about students
who r almost hopeless and dun giv up on them!!
U made me burst into tears using touching sentences...
but all I do is disappoint u,, all I do is make u frown...
Saying all this is all useless... but u still a teacher who really tries
her best in educating others...
I really wish to repeat the whole course again.. in-order not to disappoint others...
I reallly dun wan to see ppl get upset and give up hope on me... NOT ANYMORE
Lastly, I'm sorry... Miss teng... to disappoint u Greatly... I can do nothing but say sorry...
Ran-away from home for the 1st time...
Fresh and trilling Feel...
My mum quarreled with me friday afternoon... Whlie bringing some things to our new house
She slapped me, and spited on my face.. I was damn Angry and sadden that she did this to me...
She ask me leave her sight forever... I took her seriously
I gave a call to my HAO BRO, Daryl, i told him I need some storage space...
CAUSE I'M BEING KICKED OUT OF THE HOUSE
Then said ask me to stay over at his house for next few days...
I was fucking touched.. And burst into tears on the phone...
After work that night... I went back to prepare to runaway...
I took A small Luggage, three small Slingbags, a haversack and my DBSK CDs Etc...
Daryl Took me in for the night... Telling me to go back the next day
I told him I ard decided to live alone... jus need storage space...
he Persuaded me continuously to go back the following day,
Next morning, woke up and help him make salads, Pasta, And Failed Making the cake
Saw him quite sad abt it, Asked the party ppl to buy a cake, and apologized...
then later before going going to work, my mum ask me to get home immediatly..
I kept quiet and resisted and hang her call... then Daryl told me go back home straight first...
I carried almost everything back home, then my mum was like lying the on the bed somehow crying...
Then I was stupid enough to go and get some other clothes and started folding them..
then she asked me what am I trying to do... She said that since I'm so bold to do this, then get out now...
I replied "OKAY" She told me to Return the room keys,
I took them out and unhook them and placed them on the table,
She started scolding me again... Saying that I'm really trying to leave izzit?
Then i say "ya", Then I explained to her that since i cannot be what u really want, them I get out lorh,
And being a bad son... She threaten to burn my birth-cert, and passport... I said "Okay"
I finished packing most of the thing and before I left I thanked her for being a great mother for the past 16yrs..
then I carried everything and went out of the small cozy room that we stayed for the past one year...
Gave Daryl a Call saying my Mum chased me out of the room... I waited for him at the usual Stone-Table...
Saw Esther on the way... Went to his hse and rested there for another while before I went to work...
Told my Manager that I'll be late, Nearly Kana Warning letter, Damn YI hAO, But his a good Manager though...
Then sudden my mum smsed me saying to give her a call by four-Thirty... If not I need not call her anymore...
So I gave her a call... again... She tell me ' So WHAT NOW? You really don't want come back anymore??"
I said"Yeah... Then So what You Want Me do Now??'
"Now I want You to come back home straight, Then nothing will happen, I treat it as if nothing happened"
Then I went Back straight, and she was like treating as if nothing happened.. Then I burst Into tears...
I Cried While saying "it's not I dunwanna be a good boy, Is that I'm always making You angry... That's y...
Then she said NvrMind La, Over Ju over ard, Go bath then go new house la... , Then I end up taking leave from work...
DAMN sad about it, Edlyn was attached to my outlet... Hais... gODs SO unfair...
Then went to Daryl's Hse at about 10plus to collect my things... Thx Daryl alot, I owe him alot...
An measureble debt... My mum looked abit sad when She saw me safe and sound..
maybe she's happy that I'm safe bahh
Ah bee oso told me to go home.. lol
My mum warned me if this is gonna be the 1st time, Make it the last time...!!
This is m y 1st runaway from home... Mafan regina(my boss) alot, Sorry... my laopan ><
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Cassiopeia of Dongbangshinki at 10:49 AM
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Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I can't set my mind straight...
I can't sleep now, I'm now thinking of her, Every second,
While she is with him, happily ever after...
I can't Set my mind straight... Cus I'm Crazy For her...
I can't make up my mind, as she take me only as a friend...
I do not understand her... Wad a girl wants...
I can't figure out truth and lies... cus all dosen't seem right...
Y izzit that im still thinking of u when u're stil with him...
when She's still in love and happy with him....
I'm such a Moron... I really don't kno how to see the situation..
I jus want to shout it out now!!!
"I'M FUCKING DEEPLY CRAZY IN LOVE WITH u!!! BEE ONG P** HO**"
Y izzit that i'm like this, smthing or sm1 who won't belong to me...
will never belong to me.. but why am i lik that...
Why can't I jus let it go... ?? it's been several time...
But this time i really want this to end...
It's like I already Knew what it's gonna turn out... but yet i still fall into that trap...
But i'm lucky she gave me a final blow... so that i won't be so upset...
It's been fun for the past few days... In the end... my "dream" might never come true...
But still... I pray hard that it will come true... i wish...
And to those i've dissapointed... Though they won't give me a second a chance..
I will try my best to complete my work...
TO: Dear Mr. Thong and Ms. Teng
TO dear visitors who visited this blog and find nothing new. sry abt it,,,
I've been bz... and tired..
Thx Sheryl and sHEmaine and pei fen for reminding me to update my blog...
Do support G-dragon and his new album -Vol 1-Heartreaker
I pon skul until i sianz... but it gave me a good lesson and one to remember..
I've vry happy that u wore the bracelet that i gave u... I'm vry vry happy...
Thx u Ah bee
I want to grow stroger... So that i won't make anymore mistakes..
and get what I Want in life...
And nice to know to Hui qin, and to Mac colleagues,
thx u for being strict and caring family...
My journey begin...
Sorry if myblog post abit drama and Long-Winded..
And that's all, Goodnite folks,,, Oyasumiinasai/Annyong
I'm a boy who lost his way while walking the path of his life...
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Cassiopeia of Dongbangshinki at 12:53 PM
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