Loneliness is a blessing, Company is Devil In Disguise

2010-06-30T22:22:00.000-07:00

HI :D

I'm Grace , Darren sucks :D
KIDDING !
k bye !

xoxo .

Drowning into Darkness, No Ray of hope...

2010-06-12T16:47:00.000-07:00

I Got A Feeling" Woohuu"

I'ma total idiot, a hot girl whom i just know... OMG. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME??

Yeah, I've got a feeling that "WHY THE FUck DID I FALL IN LOVE IN THE CLUB"!!??

If I had you man... I was so totally cheated after this girl just came so close to me...

and then she was dancin, huggin another BENG looking guy...

I was totally out of the league>

ok... enough of trash talk, Imma back my BLOG!! Hope "JU" missed me^^ "muaks"

6 months without blogging and totally forgotten about these pages of memories, past, events and emotions that were written in this cozy blog... It was really nice to read my own blog myself....
as looking back at what u've done and what should have been done... Imma vry forgetful person... It's hard for me to learn... but someday.... I will definately change myself, my personality, character, behaviour, and most definately, sense of dressing,,, i realised many clothes don't suit me, my wardrob is full of over sized cl;othes, as my mum always used to say "YOUR BODY WIll GROW BIGGER DE". and its been so many years and I 'm still as skinney and small as ever... I don'y blame her but it really doesn't work><>

Being Emotional Is a flaw, but not facing it would escaping reality-_-

2010-06-11T16:52:00.000-07:00

Being Emotional Is a flaw, but not facing it would escaping reality-_-
Having Good Friends are wonderful. It's they may also degrade to a stage where you
would ask yourself "Have you guys really treated me as a true friend?" And when
you think back about the happy moments etc. You would not want to be calculative,
but what if they push you to a level where you feel verbally abused but the Loved one's where you trusted most....?

If saying that i'm a failure in most things, It would be studies and relationship and socializing with most people... If making someone hate me, it would be my character and personality. But making
your best friends hating you and insulting you in-front of others... What would it be?? I escape the

cruel fact that I do irritate people, but at the same time I ask myself... Why do I act like this?? Why it's alway people hating me?? I'm weak, people look down on me a lot, maybe my family looks down on me too... But what am I surpose to do in order to get things right....??!! I lack knowledge, I lack personality... it's a dear friend who told me that... In the worst way possible...

It totally broke me into pieces... shatter in the darkest places in my heart that the ray of hope would never shine... I was devastated... Lost... and Sad... What was the things that triggered that anger?? Think back, maybe I shouldn't get too close to many people... It's really scary... It's like locking out for a land-mine and stepping right on it... I'm really scared of socializing, especially now...

Well... Back to Square 1!!

2010-02-10T06:49:00.000-08:00

Im back to this blog once again... Will mostly words... Nobody really reads anyway. ^^
I lost alot of precious stuff this year, Some are importan, Some are jus trouble...
It's hard to keep them... They just keep getting out of control...
Guo Ming is back on track... He talks to me alittle more ard... Joseph too...
Muhammad is jus a dumbass which even alah oso hard to help him...
I lost JiaLe... Darry... And the trust of ppl in fernvale, Im lik and infamous outcast...
Now even ah bee is drifting away from me... we're having a distances...
The only friend that nvr left me is only daryl... no matter how we argued, fought...
he came back eventually..
I really think some friends really make se of u and yr money...
thats all. im getting more emo nowadays... but i dun give up hope....^^

Slacking at home... Merry Christmas.... Wong Spelling?

2009-12-24T19:46:00.000-08:00

Slacking at home... Merry Christmas.... Wrong Spelling?

Merry X'mas To Any Human being out there!! But not on "Pandora" Cus It Don't Exist!! How I wish to be A Na'Vi!! 2.7m Tall!! OMG...
"Skwang" Thats a nice word!! lol
Went with my Long Time No Contact Cousin 'Ariel'
And Her 3 Cute Frens, Made Those Two Guys Laughed Out their Lungs!!With Wad U aSK? Erotic & Artistic Jokes!!

Addicted to Jeff dunham's Jokes!!... or shall I say Racism !! Muhaha!!

"India" Weird Ass Country, Has A dOT On Forehead. Whats that? "(U R Here!!)"

OMG, Walter Is one hell of a Hypocrite of puppet in 'History'
Jeff DunHam is one who really Makes his puppets come to life, Not to mention Achmed The Dead Terrorist@!

Christmas party Ended in Disaster and a lost of a friend...
I shouted at her, She feel disappointed in me!!
She once told me, Sister will always be by yr side... I guess that was jus for a moment!! But it all come down to my own doings...
An Apology can be a vaccine or a medicine, But it dose not Garantee a full recovery!! Things can happen again!! Accidents may occur... Debates nvr Stop!!
This is a reality that I'm stuck and unable to Escape!!
It hurts whenever it flashes!! I guess she would be a friend that I would have to go a Thousand Miles to Search for, One with An Attitude Like None Other, Adorable yet Pure, Kind yet Unreasonable At time('x') maybe This is A lesson for me, A lost Of a Precious Friend, A gain of a New Learning, Abitabah, Mayb Buddha Enlighten me!! And Believe Is An open Thing, Amen!! I wish for Father's Blessings too, I pray Sincerely In my Heart... I respect all got, I have many Believes... Be it Jesus, goddess of mercy, Etc. But Its best to have one which really leads the heart and soul to Enlightenment!!

I asked my friends, Should I exist? Or I was off not in this world? I feel death in my vision, I want my soul released and free, but the reality is that I'm not brave enough to do it, cus Of the pain, during that one moment, the pain which set the soul free, The action that make a person goes inbetween the two worlds!! simply Put,' Suicide'
Its an incredible and unimaginable sensation, An carefree soul Ever-after
But Just Moments, Split Second Before We could even Start...

Our Heart best Rapidly, Feeling Pain in our heart, a kind of evil and poisonous Emotion, Trying to Keeps our souls get out of this filthy and polluted world!! It's "LOVE" Love for our Parent who Aren't Dead Yet, Love for A Hot women or Handsome Men Waiting for you!! Love for the PLants aND THE Gods that Created this world, Love For This fLITHY, sMELLY Little World, Our bodies Can't Live without Out Soul, The worlD cAN'T Live Without Us, This is Human, A patetic Kind of creature Which Can't Live without Support, Can't Live Without Atmosphere, Can't Live without A Hesitation!! This is Humane... Y r we born Like that? Ask God... !!

Emotions is the engine in Some of us, it is a boost that either drives u, or totally switches off yr spirit, Being emotional is good for Creativity, but not good for hard labour... It's not an on going process, it needs rest and and comfort most of the time, Basically, Im speaking on the side of an emotional person. So I do not know how does ppl who aren't emotional works... But above is how I think an emotional Person get his/her work done, Those emotional are controlable, but needs effort and intelligences t0 guide its way, Humans have a vry complicated brain, we think about how we look, how we appeal to other humans. Mostly the opposite sex!! Human emotion is very sensitive at times, Its a time bombs nobody can predict its presence, not even the human instinct!! Except for Daily Interaction, E.g A husband and wife, They learn to accept the exsistence of the time bomb inside each other, And co-inhabit to live on with it... A brother and sister, KNowing when the siblings will cause a fight is oso because of daily interacting, they know when and wad might happen!! It's like predicting, but it's more of a daily cycle, But still, the human instinct is only made to war, u Predict yr enermy's position, but u dun predict wad speech they're havin!! Everything in this world has a limit!!! Sometimes its only best to keep mum, Can joke around if u can!! Prediction is hard to hit 100% success rate, but being fresh and creative is what most ppl need!! , mAN i NAG ALOT!! THAT THE END, U may find my storey Have no Meanining, Cus i Drank coffee!! HEHE, so long, pls go and support AVATAR, It's a wonderland!! GOODNIGHT

yeah, going to have my own HOME...

2009-10-18T10:49:00.000-07:00

yeah, going to have my own HOME...

Finally I'm Gonna hav my own home, but not my own room though...

but at least I got freedom... Gonna palace all my Gundam Babies

on the shelf!

Tomorrow I wonder wad Thong willll say... Sure Wad-Cad again!!LOL

I know miss teng vry disappointed in me, bo bian...

She the best teacher who try to motivate me...

but i hopeless and useless... Thx youmiss teng... I jus hope u can read this...

cus I kno I make u vry disappointed in me, bcus of my selfishness...

U r the best and caring teacher who cares about students

who r almost hopeless and dun giv up on them!!

U made me burst into tears using touching sentences...

but all I do is disappoint u,, all I do is make u frown...

Saying all this is all useless... but u still a teacher who really tries

her best in educating others...

I really wish to repeat the whole course again.. in-order not to disappoint others...

I reallly dun wan to see ppl get upset and give up hope on me... NOT ANYMORE

Lastly, I'm sorry... Miss teng... to disappoint u Greatly... I can do nothing but say sorry...

Ran-away from home for the 1st time...

Fresh and trilling Feel...

My mum quarreled with me friday afternoon... Whlie bringing some things to our new house

She slapped me, and spited on my face.. I was damn Angry and sadden that she did this to me...

She ask me leave her sight forever... I took her seriously

I gave a call to my HAO BRO, Daryl, i told him I need some storage space...

CAUSE I'M BEING KICKED OUT OF THE HOUSE

Then said ask me to stay over at his house for next few days...

I was fucking touched.. And burst into tears on the phone...

After work that night... I went back to prepare to runaway...

I took A small Luggage, three small Slingbags, a haversack and my DBSK CDs Etc...

Daryl Took me in for the night... Telling me to go back the next day

I told him I ard decided to live alone... jus need storage space...

he Persuaded me continuously to go back the following day,

Next morning, woke up and help him make salads, Pasta, And Failed Making the cake

Saw him quite sad abt it, Asked the party ppl to buy a cake, and apologized...

then later before going going to work, my mum ask me to get home immediatly..

I kept quiet and resisted and hang her call... then Daryl told me go back home straight first...

I carried almost everything back home, then my mum was like lying the on the bed somehow crying...

Then I was stupid enough to go and get some other clothes and started folding them..

then she asked me what am I trying to do... She said that since I'm so bold to do this, then get out now...

I replied "OKAY" She told me to Return the room keys,

I took them out and unhook them and placed them on the table,

She started scolding me again... Saying that I'm really trying to leave izzit?

Then i say "ya", Then I explained to her that since i cannot be what u really want, them I get out lorh,

And being a bad son... She threaten to burn my birth-cert, and passport... I said "Okay"

I finished packing most of the thing and before I left I thanked her for being a great mother for the past 16yrs..

then I carried everything and went out of the small cozy room that we stayed for the past one year...

Gave Daryl a Call saying my Mum chased me out of the room... I waited for him at the usual Stone-Table...

Saw Esther on the way... Went to his hse and rested there for another while before I went to work...

Told my Manager that I'll be late, Nearly Kana Warning letter, Damn YI hAO, But his a good Manager though...

Then sudden my mum smsed me saying to give her a call by four-Thirty... If not I need not call her anymore...

So I gave her a call... again... She tell me ' So WHAT NOW? You really don't want come back anymore??"

I said"Yeah... Then So what You Want Me do Now??'

"Now I want You to come back home straight, Then nothing will happen, I treat it as if nothing happened"

Then I went Back straight, and she was like treating as if nothing happened.. Then I burst Into tears...

I Cried While saying "it's not I dunwanna be a good boy, Is that I'm always making You angry... That's y...

Then she said NvrMind La, Over Ju over ard, Go bath then go new house la... , Then I end up taking leave from work...

DAMN sad about it, Edlyn was attached to my outlet... Hais... gODs SO unfair...

Then went to Daryl's Hse at about 10plus to collect my things... Thx Daryl alot, I owe him alot...

An measureble debt... My mum looked abit sad when She saw me safe and sound..

maybe she's happy that I'm safe bahh

Ah bee oso told me to go home.. lol

My mum warned me if this is gonna be the 1st time, Make it the last time...!!

This is m y 1st runaway from home... Mafan regina(my boss) alot, Sorry... my laopan ><

I can't set my mind straight...

2009-10-14T12:53:00.000-07:00

I can't set my mind straight...

I can't sleep now, I'm now thinking of her, Every second,

While she is with him, happily ever after...

I can't Set my mind straight... Cus I'm Crazy For her...

I can't make up my mind, as she take me only as a friend...

I do not understand her... Wad a girl wants...

I can't figure out truth and lies... cus all dosen't seem right...

Y izzit that im still thinking of u when u're stil with him...

when She's still in love and happy with him....

I'm such a Moron... I really don't kno how to see the situation..

I jus want to shout it out now!!!

"I'M FUCKING DEEPLY CRAZY IN LOVE WITH u!!! BEE ONG P** HO**"

Y izzit that i'm like this, smthing or sm1 who won't belong to me...

will never belong to me.. but why am i lik that...

Why can't I jus let it go... ?? it's been several time...

But this time i really want this to end...

It's like I already Knew what it's gonna turn out... but yet i still fall into that trap...

But i'm lucky she gave me a final blow... so that i won't be so upset...

It's been fun for the past few days... In the end... my "dream" might never come true...

But still... I pray hard that it will come true... i wish...

And to those i've dissapointed... Though they won't give me a second a chance..

I will try my best to complete my work...

TO: Dear Mr. Thong and Ms. Teng

TO dear visitors who visited this blog and find nothing new. sry abt it,,,

I've been bz... and tired..

Thx Sheryl and sHEmaine and pei fen for reminding me to update my blog...

Do support G-dragon and his new album -Vol 1-Heartreaker

I pon skul until i sianz... but it gave me a good lesson and one to remember..

I've vry happy that u wore the bracelet that i gave u... I'm vry vry happy...

Thx u Ah bee

I want to grow stroger... So that i won't make anymore mistakes..

and get what I Want in life...

And nice to know to Hui qin, and to Mac colleagues,

thx u for being strict and caring family...

My journey begin...

Sorry if myblog post abit drama and Long-Winded..

And that's all, Goodnite folks,,, Oyasumiinasai/Annyong

I'm a boy who lost his way while walking the path of his life...

Jus a Simple BlogPost

2009-07-11T08:42:00.000-07:00

Jus a Simple BlogPost...

Workkin in Mac so siong... Screw the manager too!! KKaopei So much!!

Spended more than 60bucks this week...

1:girls

2:movie

3:hair Products

4:Friends!!

Ytd went to fren's fren"s fren de GrandmA wake/Funeral... met my pri sch classmate...

Went back alittle early cus the next day need work plus got clothes need wash...

Finnally Wtched TransFormers:Revenge of The Fallen, last part I felt alittle CARTOON !! the part jus fused with Optimus lik the animated series blabla!!

Haven been in contact with ah bee and ting untill YTD!!

She seemed alittle quiet, and kept wacking me in the cafe in SK Library!!

For a girl's strengh she has quite a lot of power I'D say!!

Went to sch then go all the way back to the stupid kopitiam so far to eat!1 hais i miss the chicken in the front coffee shop!!

I wan repeat half year my module thenmy teacher kaopei me

i wish im dead together with my mum now... so tat me and her won't hav so much worries!!(mayb together with my dad too)

May buddha/christ/mary/alla/etc bless us!! abithaba!!amen!!

Didn't expect Avenge SeveNFold got sad soongs too. but damn stylo!! Warmness on the soul is really "Warmness" on the soul!!

Hear the song can cry... adn dear god!! vry lik brotherhood and family de!!

De, de, de ,Decade!! Movie comming out on august!!1 dunu when can watch!! ALL masked rider VS DAI sHOCKER!!

NO Hope... Really?

2009-06-22T09:52:00.000-07:00

NO Hope... Really?
To:fghsdlkfhsdkbfvkls
Thx for ur little bashing in my blog, Hope is something when a person doesen't give up ,even when the person does mistakes... saying wrong things, and making someone else angry... because he knows he needs to changes, and he knows when its done its vry hard to heal or repair(broken english) but, he will only continues to live, in guilt and regret to make amendments if he is able to... and once again, this person can oni say sorry to god for his mistakes and wait for a chance to repend his wrong-doings... but mayb the oni thing got for him is KARMA... and this person will live in misery... feeling sorry all the time... and whoever u are fghsdlkfhsdkbfvkls, I'm sorry to u if i irritate u or made u hate me!! but things done wrong can't turned back!! wadever I hav done... GoMen NaSai!!

Friends/People come and go..
People come and go as the wind blow... and if u're some1 whose gonna hate me in the end... I'm let go... and sorry, Im sorry... And Sorry to Buddha and buddhist, I hav done something wrong!!(even im not A buddhist)Sorry, Tui BU Qi, ChaeSong Hamnida, GomenNasai, Toi mm ju, Pai Sei(Sorry IN 4languages and 2 dialects)
And the person im sorry to is a pineapple, im sorry to hav argued with u over my wrongs... and making fun of yr religion... All I can say again is Sorry... Hav a good nite Everyone, Rmb Bad frens come and go, good frens stay forever... Thousand regrets... May god lead me to the right path... mac vry siong...
And...Thx for acompanying me during this holiday... u're the best holiday fren!! Sorry... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...hope theres no hope for me... my deepest regrets and sincere apology... the light has turned out on me... and I kno u don't giv a damn abt me... but im sorry... im sorry... Lights off>.,<

2009-06-17T03:07:00.000-07:00

Things and People come and go... Happiness Visits, Sadness stays...
Realising ones mistake oso means losing something important in friendship, but u gain something new each time... a lesson is taught each time u do a mistake, and it leads to a vry bad ending yet a new beginning!! Looking into someones else things secretly can oso lead to many problems!! especially the person trusted me so much... this blogspot is a experience to make me a better person... and not letting more people get disapointed abt me... because many people is vry disapointed in me now!! N i dun wish to continue lik this... Dear god... pls turn me to a more thoughtful man!! I shall beg for forgivness!!!

I may not be a perfect person, but i shall do my best to make myself a better character!! with my peers and sociaty!! I want be not wad i use to be!!

And sorry sorry sorry... i dun wad to say to u anymore... i broke yr trust and stole yr privacy...

And to people out there, it is not good to look at yr frens phone even if they're away,,, unexpected trouble will happen, and yr fren will nvr forgiv u!!! espcially with nokia fones!!!
The End!!

Stand by me... Day by Day. And our love shall go On & On

2009-05-31T08:49:00.000-07:00

As U stand me everyday, our love grows... like a fire that continues to burn forever.
But one day... U betrayed and Abandoned me, leaving those scars in my Heart...
And day after day, the pain goes through my veins, slowly spreading throughout my body>>

As time goes by the pain reaches its final stop, the "Mind". Making me think about you when I drink, Reminding me of your smile when eating A Sunny Side-Up(Fried egg with Smiley Face).
Flashing back our good-times while watching a Korean-Drama. Are we really not meant to be? Or maybe U never Loved me before... Even from the start!! Its time to Erases you,
ROBOT; Press the RESET, Press Press the RESET!!
... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Shinee-Stand by Me(Boys over Flowers)
SuperJunior-Reset(Sorry, Sorry)
Adam Lambert-No Boundaries
2NE1-FIRE(Digital Single)
was pretty bored, watched boys over flowers on Utube
Wanted to write something sad!!
Thats all, enjoy

Emo until nvr blog for so long, sry visitors

2009-05-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

Emo until nvr blog for so long, sry visitors!!
For those who visited this blog and u see that there is no new post, sry abt it!! Im really stressed during the past 1mth plus, Many things happened!! school work nt done, nearly getting Debar from exams!! But I willl stand up from where I fell down!! luckily im slowly following up my work in school, and I'm having a good time now, but economy is very bad, i kn theres nth to do with this but hope to see more jobs and $$ available!! hehe

And I've been thinking, I seriously need to change my character!! It sucks most of the time, I don't kno wad im doing most of the time, thx some ppl!! Joshep Kwan kwan Kwan, Daryl Fong Fong Fong, and Connie Da-Jie!! And those who looked-downed on my in pei Hwa Sec@!! I will grow stronger everyday, because of u p-pl, who said all the bad points about me! and some believed that i can change!! Thank You!! Although it has Pain and Sufferings, but oso joy and learnings gained!!(ps, broken english) but it makes me wan to chang emyself more, but for me, all i need is ALOT of time! Lots and lots of time, my perserverence and confidences!! dear god, pls change me into a person thats considerate, always thinking, and kind(haha)!! Amen!

One last things!! Tohoshinki THE SECRET CODE is out and I bought my copy ard
Available in Sembawang Music Stores at $27.50!! the lowest price in SG now!!3
Here's a preview of the album!!

GooDnite!!

I'm a New-Born!!

2009-03-30T11:08:00.000-07:00

I'm a New-Born!!
went to church with DARYL during the weekends, became a new born christian...(I Dont Know...) People were friendly there, and it was a party instead of praying all the time and stuff.

Holiday/Malacca
I'm on a 3 week holiday after my malacca sch trip, it was fun and we went to lost of places, St' Pauls Church, and oso the hse where channel 8 gala drama :Little Nohya took place of the shooting!! as a design student, it jus lik an ancient art-piece with portugis floor tiles, and many other european crafts and architechtures inside the building... and the in-house guide was a Nohya lady, and she was fun when explaining to us the histories and four-fathers of the family, they can speak mainly hokkien and malay, they are the desendents of a mixed culture, but mostly chinese ancient culture/rules(there is a much better word to discribe this but I forgot, sry)
and they had vry strict rules and regulations to go wit!!Thats all for the malacca field trip, I'lll have a much detailed discribtion of the whole experience!! this is only the Nohya and baba culture!!

Music Chart(kpop, j-pop, c-pop and english)
This week is mostly korean and english!!
lets cut the craps and lets get started!!

Music of the week
1.David Archuleta-A Little Too Not Over You, Album:David Archuleta
2.TaeYang(BigBang)-나만 바라봐(Look Only At me), Album: 2008 1st Mini Album - HOT
3.Fly To The Sky-Good Girl, Album:Vol.8-Decennium
4.After School-AH, Album:New Schoolgirl
5.Alin-失恋无罪, Album:失恋无罪
6.Y2J (Yuming & Jane)-草戒指, Album:为你而活
7.TaeYang(BigBang)-Make Love, , Album: 2008 1st Mini Album - HOT
8.Lady Gaga-Poker Face, Album: The Fame
9.Fly To The Sky-구속, Album:Vol.8-Decennium
10.Shin Hye Sung(ShinHwa)-거짓말이라도, Album:Vol.3-Side 2, Keep Leave

Thats all, Hope u enjoy

the sickest and saddest moments of my life...

2009-03-15T12:16:00.000-07:00

the sickest and saddest moments of my life...
I lost my new fone and i lost 3 friends!!!
I can't cope with my school work!!!
I don't know what I should do...

Y is life so cruel!! Although i don't blame it...
Can anyone help me... I really trying my best not to get myself torn into pieces!!
I really need a rest... ... ... i really need a Shoulder to lean on, I had... but I made it fall off and left me...
pls be safe... my w910i... U r free... This is goodbye!! It was a fun 1 month wit you, along wit my 4gb memory...
Dear Simkia... pls be safe too... I am bastard for doing something like tat... Im sorry nomatter wad... I'm now recieving my karma, so u can watch me fall into pieces...
And people in fernvale...(Ah W, JY, MAM) I am so sorry for EVERYTHING that happened today!! Thats all I can say, the fun time ends here... thank you for treating me with so much care and concern!! I will nvr forget this place of happinese... this is goodbye... fernvale...

Anyways, No matter what, There will be music in me!! this will be the #1 post of my weekly music introduction and #1 music are memories... This week's Music Are All Jap and Korean!!
this week's album in my charts are:
1. Fly To The Sky- Vol.8 Decennium(Korean)
2. Shin Hye Sung-Vol.3 Sde 2 Keep Leave(Korean)
3. ToHoShinKi-The Secret Code(Jap) I Haven Listen though...

And Today's Memories are Music are:
1. Smap-Lion Heart(Jap)
2. Digimon-Brave Heart(Jap
3. Park Hio Shin-Snow Flower(Korean)"Sry, I Love You" OST
4. Porno Graffiti-Melissa(Jap) "Full Metal Alchemist 1st Opening"
5 .Konjiki no GashBell-Kasabuta(Jap) "Konjiki no GashBell 1st Opening"

I will be blogging regularly!! do look out for new stuff!! BANZAI ToHoShinKi
May 2009 be a year of many changes... Amen... I'm Tired...

Smtown live in bangkok 09 feb

2009-02-14T09:54:00.000-08:00

Girl's Generation Made My Life Complete!!
TaeYeon nuna, yr smile make me fly to heaven!!
Yoon-Ah Nuna, Yr gaze Made me feel that i'm the luckiest person on earth
Lastly, Jessica nuna, ChaeSang Hamnida!! I was too excited to properly call out yr name!! MianHe...

7th Feb 2008, 2am
I was was walking towards the smoking area of
Suvranambumi airport BangKok!!
Then, I saw this bus printed wit the SMTown 09
Live in BangKok picture!!
And i knew a star will definately pop up in front of me!!
so i waited...

abt 25mins later... I was waiting inside the arrival-hall... AND!!! Three member of SNSD/Girl's Generation walked out of the check-out point!! And... the fans were up at the second and third floor shouting and cheering!! So i was very lucky to get close up and saw TaeYeon, Yoon-Ah and Jessica!! I imeadiatly called out to TaeYeon and Yoon-Ah!! They looked at me straight in the eye and smiled at me!!! It's a pity Jessica didn't looked at me, cus I called her name wrongly, instead i called Tiffany(Another Member Of Girl's Generation) !!

they walked out of the airport towards their bus, then i ran back there cus my mum is waiting there!! I was so excited!! Its a pity i did not get to see those five wonderful boysz at the airport!!
And when the bus door opened awhile later, I shouted" SoNyueShiDae, Hwating!!" and everyone smoking there turned around and looked at me, and the staff oso looked at me!! lol

The most wonderful miracle of my life, a star using her mobile to flash and communicate wit me!!
I said a star because they were in the bus, so i could not see who was the one using her mobile to flash!! Then, i waved back and after that, i put my fingertipson my head and making a heart-shape using my hands!! And guess wad?! She used her phone to make a heart shape back to me!! I'm so happy that I'm speechless... I can cry while thinking of it again and again!!

I hope anti-fans of SNSD can forgive them, they are oso humans... they did not deliberately flrt with our Dongbang, but they were forced to...!! So please, let this 9 llittle happy angels go... pls...

SMtown Live in BangKok

Life is peaceful now

2009-01-30T22:47:00.000-08:00

Life is peaceful now
I'm waiting for love to knock on my door
I tired...

Surprise!! Great Life in ITE Tampines!! Halleluja~

2009-01-07T21:48:00.000-08:00

Surprise!! Great Life in ITE Tampines!! Halleluja~
I love the Ite life man!! It's Totaly an extravaganza!! Its lik a wonderland, the entrance to the class was lik a nightmare at first, but after that its a fun and nice dreamland!! Slacking time babies, Yahoooo!!

Friends
Made lots of frens in the campus!! New Fren:Ismail, Guo Ming, Josehp, Wei San and Erilynn!!! they r so many friendly people in this campus!!! I love it man... but the days r still r still long, i hope oni happy things will happen!!

Hey, ladies who are reading my blog!!! Go to this blog shop and see wad u need for your make-ups and assesories!! "http://absolutely-ladies.blogspot.com" It's For Ladies!!

And this is a section for guys and perverts!!!
Enjoy!!

Awaiting 4 A new Adventure in 2009!!! ITE Tampines

2008-12-26T18:51:00.000-08:00

26th December, 6pm
Sry, I've Been Slacking instead of Blogging!!Sry Guys...:(

Awaiting 4 A new Adventure in 2009!!! "ITE Tampines"
What would life be in this place? Is it dangerous? Is it safe to be in there? Will I be victimize and bullied? Am I worring too much? NeverMind!! Lets put this to a stop 1st!!
Miracles and Untimed Bomb!!
I have a new friend!!! Connie Jie Jie!!! She works in Courts MegaStore, smile is her weapon!! She is 101% Friendly(Just Don't Piss Her Off!!)She has the same Birth-date and same year as my friend, Jia Le(Alfred) Which happens to also be her Prince Charming!!

Rennie: Cold Ice Princess
Rennie, Connie's younger sis... it was scary to look directly into her eyes. It scares the crap outta You!!! But shes a really cutie pie!!

"Connie Jie Jie"
It was on the 24th of December, 2008 that we met... She is fun to talk to and nice kind to share things together!!
(Devil Prince + Smile Princess)=Sweet Romance!!<3> 29th December. 4.58am

Day of interview of the New course in Tampines ITE:Space Design(Architechture)
Hope I could pass the test today get into the course!!! Amen... >o< style="font-weight: bold;">Prayers
Hope god will help me out of troble... Dear God, Pls let me lead a peaceful ITE life for the next 2years... ONeGai!!

Love...
I asked Elaine if "ONE FINE DAY" I ask her for a relationship, would she accept? She says depends... Which means I at least have 1% chance... Mayb this posiblity grow as days go by... Brought Teenage Magazine, Read the Horoscope section... IT says that love for capricorns would most probably be on May... ANd, Her B'day is also in May... Connie Jie Jie say if find stead must know the person well 1st, the longer the better!! Now I only pray that my true love will arrive! Hope it will be Elaine!!

Letting the past go...
I was such a weakling to cry infront of my friends just because of my ex!! And it seemed she oni liked me, but never loved me!!(I'm just making a wild guess)
After I sms her Ytd, I realised that thinking of her is a waste of time... she also wishes me to not think of her... butWHY is it so hard to jus forget her?? I cried and cried... but its all gone to drain... She is my NightMare... :( 我還想她, Why?
K-pop
SHINee TVXQ

Bigbang wEEK

2008-12-16T13:51:00.001-08:00

BigBang's Number 1(Addicting song!!)
Man... BigBang really took up almost my video watching and song listening time!!! It seems lk I'm very addicted to BangBang Rithum!!1 Yah0oo00ooo000ooooo!! It's time I listen to both DBSK & BigBang together... Hope one day they'l have a vry cool hip-h0p beat and Ballad Collaboration!! lol...

Evolution!! I'm having changes....
Let my Pictures do the talking... I dun wanna get trashed in my precious Cbox saying I'm BuaBa... I know I not suai, but At least I dun wanna be a nerd 4 my whole teenage life...

My Bao Bei Laptop!! I LOVE YOU

Bao bei... PAPA will always love u...!! Muahx!!

Things happens unexpectedly!!!

2008-12-05T00:12:00.000-08:00

Things happens unexpectedly!!!!Why??
1:Man... As usual, I find life getting bored more day by day!! U live 4 commitment... U live for others... Why? Y izzit so safocating(hard breathing) jus to co-inhabit wit other ppl... >O<
2:Why izzit so hard to jus speak the truth? It causes so many conflict after the truth is spoken. N the other party is vitimised(kana sabo) in someway... especially 4 weak ppl lk me!!! Easily Treatend... sads:(

Class 4T1
In this class, people only rmbs the bad things u do...! People only rmb good things U did if it was exceptionally good or if they gain anything through the things U do!!!
I'm not trying to say 4T1 is a bad class... I'm not nt in any possition to say anything... but I'm trying to say even in sch/a class... people r materialistic... But thinking back, aren't we the same? Through Pei Hwa I learnt many things... whenever I think back... the bad things... stupid things... embarassing events... Honourable Times... and many other evet that occured around me... I always teaches me to look out whenever the same problems happens again!!! I thank this class, but at the same time... I hate this class!

Single 4 two months ard... When will the next love knock on my door?
Confessed to Joey of Pei Hwa on 7 Dec 2008, 4.30 AM. Rejected 25 mins ltr... her reason 4 rejecting me was she dun wanna hav a boyfriend at this age... I even gav a call 4 no reason,, lol
I like her mayb bcus of reactions... its really cute... but see oni... cannot own it!!! hahahaha
Had a crush on her on 23rd Nov 2008... Mayb I'm being alittle deperate abt L.O.V.E...

Wishes:
1:Elaine... Hope u'll be back in SG soon...
2:Hope to help Esther Sis find The song she wan... Nightwish-The Escapist
3:Hope to time could go faster... thn I can meet DongBangShinKi, Shinee, SNSD, SUJU, Zhang Li In, And CheoSangJiHee in BangKok:Thailand... SaRangHe... DongBang... SaRangHe... JyongHyun Ssi...
JaeJeong Hyung, JunSu Hyung, ChangMin Ssi, YunHo Hyung, Micky YooChun...
See U guys in BangKok... DongBangShinGi... Hwating!!!>.-
Lastly... I love my mother... Mum!! I love eu.. Muahx!!! U provided me with everything I need... thank eu 4 giving birth to me... Muahx >.<

SHINee-너 아니면 안되는 걸 (Romantic),,, For Teresa... This How I'm Living... Read the subs!!!

2008-11-22T13:29:00.000-08:00

SHINee-너 아니면 안되는 걸 (Romantic),,, For Teresa... This How I'm Living... Read the subs!!!

This is a song from Korea's new-born boyband "SHINee"

3 weeks after~ I'm Back!!

2008-11-17T10:42:00.000-08:00

3 weeks after~ I'm Back!!
Hihi, I'm back to writing my story... Mayb few ppll missed me... lol, I sry Guys(for ppl who reads my blog regularly "especially Pei Fen! Mianhe Pei fen) The reason 4 not blogging 4 so many weeks is due to my break up wit Teresa, and my holiday trip to Thailand Phuket!! After my trip I was too lazy to post anything even though I'm free~ Choisong hamnida Everyone, hope u wil giv me comments in the Little tagbox on the RIGHT!!! okies? I sincerly thank those who gave comments n appreciate my blogposts@@ kamsam hamnida!!

I'll say little problems, but I'll say lots of happpiness!!

Problems~
Phone Spoil, Lonely, Lost my M2 card reader/adapter, Tok to Teresa!!(Is tat a problem anyway), Broke(Unable to buy presents 4 my friends)... I somehow believe I shd Say they problems out 1st, Its better... Maybe?!

My Happiness^-^
Happiness 1:Mirotic album is finnally in My Hands(3Weeks Ago!! I canceled the order from Jun(SKITH) I was too desperate to get it... and!! It finnally hits the Sembawang Music Stores! So I gave Jessica(SKITH) a call and said Chaesong hamnida Alot of time to show my sincere apology... and she said nvm n transfered back the money back to my Mummy... I Immediatly Rush to the music store to Grab(Not steal*But buy!!) the long awaited album "Mirotic"... Mirotic hav let us lovely Cassiopieans waited 1 year n 7 months( nearly 2 years) for a fantastic album again... or Mirotic album... Cassies who hav devoted their love 4 the past 5 years for DongBangShinKi Hhave not go to waste... wads we fans recieved is a wonderful album from the boys again... Although the MKMF awards they didn't recieved many bigawards or "DaeSung"... We still love them n will giv them support for life!! DongbangShinKi-Sarangheyo!! Hwating!!

Happiness 2: The days of SM Town Live In Bangkok is getting closer, closer and closer!!! In 2weeks time from now, SKITH and ppl (including me) will be flying to bangkok b4 29 November!!! Thats all!!LOL...

Deleted Pictures... For Teresa...
yo, I hav ard deleted our/yr pics so hope u cd giv me a reply... I hope i can still go yr Hse there to emo... I dun wan to erase this memory... I'm sry if i'm Being ignorant... but I still hold vry strong feelings 4 ya... I surpose u kno... I've been hinting u wit words many times in smss... I'm sry if it irritates u... but this is all i can say... And, all i can say is... I hate that i love you... Sorry...

Mirotic Singapore Version A Introduction@_@
Mirotic box.
Two Paper Cover.
60 Page Booklet.
Two Pins.(Mine is JaeHo)
Mirotic CD.
Jewel Case.
Translated Lyrics & Thanks to.
it is worth the buy!!

For the phuket trip i hav nth much to show, jus some pic, n my mum slpping

Hope U guys enjoyed my post... if u think i cd hav improvements, pls leave a msg in my tagbox or pm me in msn if u kno me!! lol

Hatred, Love & Stress

2008-10-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

Hatred/Being Hated
Three days nvr post lers... I'm hav returned to a stage/situation where lots of ppl hates me... Hope this will not continue to a worst stage, I hav made my Ex-GF hate me, I made Jin-Hui hate me, N i made Grace Tan Xin Ya hate me... After the relationship, I realised many truths I did not realised! There are things that I do really made people hate me alot in the past, even now! I nvr learn... Even on the last day of sch... Can some1 jus teach me hw to be a better person? Mayb not... I need to learn myself, n upgrade myself to hav a better character...

Disaster/Tragedy
I hope Teresa would tok to me again, It really hurts when I saw her expression when she came out of the Mrt station... I followed her n held her wrist, but was strongly rejected by her, she told me to let go of her hand fierecly!! I was quite shock but I expected she would do that!! I wanted to ask what her brother meant by saying "That's not call break!!" I was so confused... I was ard determind to let go of this relationship, bt his few sentence of sms shocked me... But the truth oni became clear when I met Teresa again, it was a miracle to see her a again... for the last time!! She became more beautiful, n more mature during this 1 mth!! I will definately miss those days when we would say I love you... Hope the both of us will hav a happy ending with our love ones in future!!! I hav learnt many things...

Learning Journey Towards Being A Stylish Person!!
Man... I seriously hate my hair!! Shouldn't hav went to $10 cut at AMK Hub lor... sian... Thx to N levels... Now I need to wait for it to grow!!!Now I'm trying to read more magazines, to "Upgrade" my fashion knowledge!! Hehe...

Cute Cousins!!

No need for further explanation!!blabla...

Finnally Im Out Of A Cage!!Lol

2008-10-21T12:38:00.000-07:00

Finnally Im Out Of A Cage!!Lol

Yah... Went out wit Friends Today, 1 after another... Yeppi~
Ying Hong, a long time no see friend... she oso stay near my block... so meet up wit her at botak jones then after tat go my hse! Thn let her use my comp... went to Novena United Square, she say ask me pei her go there 4her job interview, but we late... Haiz, damn guilty abt it. Thn treated her MacFlurry+extra Orea...

Catching A Movie After Months~Yeppo!!
Then pang sei her liao go Dolby Gauth to wait 4 Joy, she ask me to accompany her to watch movie(s){cus oni 1 movie dun need to put "s" ba?} I was sooo... HappY!! Finnally gt ppls ask me out 4 movies... The we walked to Cathay, but found out the show 9plus then start... So decided to go Orchard Cineleisure to catch the movie... But the movie in the beggining mostly tok abt girl stuff... but watch liao damn nice... Then we ordered two meals to cure our hunger and eat in the Cinema. Had a fun time wit her, toked 2 her alot... and finnaly~ I'm near mastering her unique English. Took pics together wit her toos~ hehe, hao lian to her my SM TOWN 08 ConcertTixs..
.

Teresa... Am I Really Losing you?
Teresa's bro called... gave me a good lecture 4 breaking up wit his lovely sister... Thn he oso say I humji... Mayb I oso really Hum ba... Somewhere deep down in my heart wan patch back... But it's no up to me anymore... I've done something wrong and yet I wish 4 a patch? I alittle too tian zhen(naive) le ba, I think... All I can say is tat I still luv her vry much~...!

DBSK!!!!
Hahaha!! Finally I know how to create a playlist in Imeem...lol! i felt so stupid after i found out how to do it... Made a playlist of Mirotic Album... I wan the album soo much... Haiz.. Got to wait lor... sian

동방신기-지금처럼JiGumChoRom(Like Now) Lyrics

2008-10-20T13:10:00.000-07:00

동방신기-지금처럼JiGumChoRom(Like Now) Lyrics

[Hero]
Busojin naui jagun gasumuro
Ijenun ne modun gosul marhal su isso
Sarange shijagul nege garuchyojun
Guderul dashi bonego shiphjin anha

[Max]
Hancham nege mojilgedo guldon negen
Nomuna gu dajonghedon ibyore mal
Ijen nado byonhesso gude obnun ginagin meirul
Huhoe obshi salsu issulka

[U-Know]
Girodon naui banghwange kuthul ijeya alge dwesso
(Nega jun) Gijog gathun sarang

[Xiah]
Jigumchoromman then I will never cry
To onjekaji ne mam soge nega salsu ige
Gochin sesang gu aneso uri kuthil sunun obso
I know that we're meant to be

Midul su obso nomuna darun achim
Nuntumyon narul gidarin tugbyorhan meil
Sewori hulloga gorie segi bakwil techum nan
Dashi usul su issulka

[Micky]
Algo inayo I've waited for you to share my nights forever
(So ever) ojig hansaramingol

[Hero]
Jigumchoromman then I will never cry
To onjekaji ne mam soge nega salsu ige
Gochin sesang gu aneso uri kuthil sunun obso
I know that we're meant to be

[Xiah]
Gude bal dahnun gose
Odirado nega hangsang soissulkoeyo

[Micky]
Manhun naldul nama

[Hero]
Ibyorun ajig irungol

[Micky]
Jigumchoromman then I will never cry

[Xiah]
To onjekaji ne mam soge nega sal su ige

[Hero]
Gochin sesang gu aneso uri kuthil sunun obso

[Max]
Ibyorun negen ajig irungol

[Hero]
Jigumchoromman then I will never cry
To onjekaji ne mam soge nega salsu ige
Gochin sesang gu aneso uri kuthil sunun obso
I know that we're meant to be

20th October~A day to remember in my love life~

2008-10-20T12:12:00.000-07:00

20th October:A day to remember in my love life~

The day Miss Teresa put me out of her featured Friends... Seems like I don't really deserve that love... I sent her a formal message, to tell her that I'm thankful 4 the past two months 4 loving me~ Shes the most beautiful stead I ever had, I don't really know what to do... I am lost in love...
I hope she will find someone better than me 100, 1000... times! And then I shall continue to face the reality of this cruel world... with people looking down on each-other... where pretty girls n cool guys hang out together~(Maybe I said too much, hahaha)

*My Emo song now is DBSK's 지금처럼 Ji Gum ChoRom(Like Now) Piano Version

SM TOWN LIVE'O8 IN BANGKOK Tickets Has Arrived!!! Yepii!!

Finally!! The countdown of SM TOWN LIVE'O8 IN BANGKOK Tickets has finally been mailed to me, yahoo~ But it's not the actual ticx(lol) Hope SKITH will get them asap~~~ I said ASAP!!

Mirotic Album!

Called SKITH's Hui to ask about Mirotic Album Orders, She say still taking in orders... BUT!! the price is now $3 more... Sian... I REALLY WANT THE MIROTIC ALBUM... Its too hot!!! SarangHe~동방.. 동방신기!!Hwating!!!

Lastly, I wish every single bad thing goes away~~PLS~~

Dissapointment n Sads

2008-10-18T13:15:00.000-07:00

Dissapointment n Sads
Me n mummy today went HMV Heeren, but oni to find that the album is the Jap single Jumon-Mirotic!! Called Jessica(SKITH) asked her y lik tat? then she said, the person nvr tell her properly!! Toked abt SNSD wit her!!! Thn she kept cursing them, TaeYeon is innocent!!! but wad to do, haiz... Called Dear to say sry abt ytd, thn she kup my fone... mayb she dun wan to hear abt ytd the thing ba!? I still too inexperience to handle a relationship!! I'm still young, still hav long way to go!! I need to hang on to this relationship no-matter wat!!!

Happy Things
Hahaha, toked to Dong.Sae.Ng(Little sister 4 guys to call in korean), she tagged on my blog!! Yahhhh, Linked her, saw her blog post sayin abt dreaming of Shinee... Luv them too!! Hope they wil become the next DBSK!!! Went to watch Boa's America Debut Single "Eat You Up" in utube, saw bad comments n vry good comments too, but luv Boa 4eva... SHEs ME LUV!!(sarangHe, Boa)

4 4T1 people who view this n who hates me!! Pls dun gimme bad tags in my precious blog, IBEG Of EU, cus i dun wan to leave Pei Hwa wit bad memories! As long as we dun cross each others river, no bad thins will happen, so pls, refrain 4 viewing this blog if u hate me.. Wo men jing Sui bua fan he sui. i kno i may sound alittle sacastic saying all this crap, but hope u guys will excell in furture!! @@@ DARRENLIM, 4T1 2008

Family dinner 17-18 oct

2008-10-17T19:12:00.000-07:00

Life
1 day nvr post ler, went out wit daddy last night to eat!! damn sian, mother keep complain abt me to my dad!! Thn my dad oso dun dare say anything.. lol
Thn she keep complaining & scolding nvr tok to me nicely, thn say Ilisten to her. haiz, 1 word "SIAN". but still got to get on wit life.

Relationship
Thn ytd made my stead angry!! she dunwam answer my call, her bro called said she emotional cut herself againn!! I'm told the bro i was the one to blame... Haiz, 2008 not good yr!! Many things i wished 4 came true!! but things I didn't wish 4 oso came along together(lol) haven seen her in a mth, wish to see her again...

東方神起's Spell-Mirotic
FINALLLY!! 18 Oct, the day I fall into 東方神起's spell@@I want them! I'm crazy 4 them! And I cant break out of that spell!!AHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHH
They got me~~~` Under their skin!!!!
I'm going HVM to grab their 4th album today!! I feel lik I'm in heaven
I missed the pre-order together wit Singapore's 東方神起 fan group SKITH(神起 IN THE HOUSE) I wish every1 would appreciate 東方神起's hardwork n music!! they're a group which made music worth to listen!! Tri-angle, Rising Sun, "O"-정.반.합.(正.反.合.), and now!! Mirotic!!!
I really luv them no matter how thing change n how poor or how rich I will be in future!! I will still collect their albums till I leave this world!!! Sarang-he, 동방신기/東方神起/Dong Bang Shin Ki! See u guys in Bangkok SM Festival!!

My boring life,

2008-10-15T00:23:00.000-07:00

Wad a boring life,
I am lonely(although i hav some frens)
i'm not charming(cus i look in the mirror everyday)
I hav a girlfren(but i can't see her all the time)
I luv TVXQ/TongFangShenQi/DongBangShinKi(but nt bcus i'm gay n nt bcus i lik the same genderr!!!)
I hate ppl who says TVXQ/TongFangShenQi/DongBangShinKi is gay(bcus they R NOT!!{EXCEPT 4 DARYL FONG WEI KIA}

Will i change in the upcomming days, i lived my secondary life being hated bt some idiots, but i feel left out somehow(lol) I wish ITE will be a better place to study in. no more bullies, no more looking down on each-other.

Although I hav more frens ard, but wish to kno more good ppl!(:
TO PPL WHO READ THIS POST: THIS is my 1st tym blogging, sry if is lame etc, but i jus lik to say wad i want to say here, cus its my place of zen!!, Luv dongbang, and luv Teresa!!!

My Place of ZEN, My love is DBSK

2008-06-18T15:57:00.000-07:00

Annyong- I am darren, normal but not vry stupid. IM a fan of (dongbangshinki)dbsk, also known as Tong Fang Shen Qi! If any cassiopeians were to visit, im will be vry happy!>< Thank you 4 vising my site, Kamsam hamnida,